Confined to my bedroom in the house that I knew as home, I was trapped.
Along this path of personal development, I knew exactly where I was heading. I learned that I wanted more for my life and I knew that I would do anything to become the person who I wanted to be, but yet still I was stuck in this place.
My sister had company over and they were on a path I couldn’t dare go. Loudly talking in the living room, one could have considered them low-lifes or lost souls, but I knew simply that I didn’t want to get wrapped up in the situation.
I would study during the day on how I wanted to change my life. I learned the actionable steps that would take me from now to my future, but I hadn’t observed quite just yet how difficult the change might be.
I stayed stuck in my bedroom playing video games.
It would be a while until I could get to my moment of change.
By just changing your environment you can set forth a change in motion for your life. We talk about higher-level changes and shifting your whole life, but sometimes we forget just how changing where you are and who you hang out with can be impactful for you.
The opposite is also true.
If you stay in a negative environment then you can be stuck in negative states and feelings. This can inhibit you from growth or becoming the person you want to be. In addition it can take you on a path towards negative and lower level thinking. This can even devastate a person’s life.
We talked about vibrational energy on another post, but essentially you either have to come down to the energy of your environment, that environmental energy has to come up to you, or you have to leave because the energy isn’t resonating at a similar frequency.
I had to leave.
It had been weeks where my sister’s friends who dealt with substance abuse would reside in my house. My parents were absent and things were only getting worse.
I was only 20 and scared of the world beyond my parent’s walls, but I knew instinctually that I had to get out of there. In a decision that I couldn’t have been more certain of, I made up my mind for the betterment of myself.
With the last rent payment that I would be paying my mother, I told her that this would be the last. She looked at me with seriousness in her face, asking if I was sure, and I affirmed that this would be my last month living at home.
I didn’t know how I was going to do it.
I was supporting myself through college, but I still knew that this would be the best for me. With tears barely visible in my eyes I returned to my bedroom.
Sometimes we just have to take action when we know that the action is for our best. Even when you don’t know exactly how things are going to work out, they always do. This can be hard and often take time, but I have found that I instinctually know what is best for me.
I ended up finding myself a one-bedroom apartment downtown for a cheaper rent price than I could have ever imagined. I learned how to budget my money and live on my own. This was the best kind of growth I could have done and the choice was all my own.
In this new environment I found an even better version of myself. I went on to make new friends and become this social person I always knew I was capable of. By just overcoming this one obstacle of my environment it was the catalyst to my inner change.
You can change your life. One place to start may be your environment.
Would it be beneficial for you to get away from negative people? Maybe a job or a situation is holding you back. It could even be a change of scenery that you might need.
Would it be worth it to you to change your environment? Or maybe you could go along the same path you are headed with the same people and the same routines. If you are ready to find that even better version of you, a small change in your surrounding may just set you on a path towards transformation.